Like a lot of people, my weekends usually end with a feeling of being pretty much totalled.
Many of the reasons are predictable: the pulls of any weekend’s errands and miscellaneous activities, the demands of being an involved parent to the girls, the need to stay current with work. The end result, though, is that a weekend is not in any way restful or relaxing, nor very “productive” (unless, like a good feminist, I consider childcare to be a form of production). And given that each weekend leads directly, of course, to a new work week, there’s pretty much no time to rest, much less recuperate.
I finally sat down today to crunch some numbers about all this. (Fittingly, I’m writing this post against the backdrop of Genevieve crying and Julia whining from their beds after the angst-inducing Sunday-night bedtime routine went totally off the rails. Memo to offspring: “Ten minutes till bedtime” really does mean “Ten minutes till bedtime.”)
By my calculations, I figure that on each week day, I spend about 8.5 hours at work and another 4.5 hours or so doing direct childcare – 6:30 to 7:45 each morning, 4:30 to 8:00 each evening. (Each morning, I handle breakfast and several other chores; each evening I do everything except prepare dinner.)
On the weekends, I’m “on the clock” for about twelve hours – from 6:30 in the morning to 8:00 at night, minus the girls’ 90 minute naps. Over those hours, I do pretty much everything with and for the girls, and it’s unusual for Shannon to be part of anything we’re doing except for making and serving lunch, dinner, and snacks and a stray playdate or such. This means that I handle the girls’ breakfasts (as well as increasingly many lunches and snacks), take care of their naptimes and baths, undertake various indoor and outdoor activities with them, bring them along on errands, et cetera.
Put another way, I spend virtually no daylight weekend time doing anything that’s not centered on the girls – no watching sports on TV, no hanging out with friends, no long workouts, no trips to the Northfield Target (much less the nearest mall), no time in the office, etc. The only serious exception to this occurs during their naps, when I usually sneak in an hour’s run or bike ride.
However hard it is to remember at 8:09 on Sunday night, many of our weekend activities are fun: our Saturday-morning breakfasts at the coffeeshop, riding bikes on campus, walking in the Arb, going to the playground. Just the same, many are either rote, must-do activities (lunch, baths, nap and bed time) or actively unpleasant ones (wiping bottoms [eleven times today, fourteen times yesterday!], dealing with fussing over the must-do activities and/or the fun ones).
These hours of childcare amount to a time commitment of about 46 hours each week – hours spent in addition to regular work hours, and, starting this week, my fairly intensive online teaching job. I will no longer wonder why I feel physically and psychologically wrecked on Sunday (or Tuesday, or Thursday) nights.